2017 – Wow, what a year! It feels like this year has been a whirlwind that flew by in a second – anyone else with me?! The year has been good to me – a ton of blessings and wonderful memories with a little bit of heartache sprinkled in.
I started this post wanting to recap all the resolutions I set in 2017 and how I succeeded or failed at each one, but I feel led to write in a different direction. Maybe that post will come another day, but for now here’s what is on my heart.
You all know I’m such a fan of goals. I’m constantly setting them and tweaking them. I have goals for the day, week, month and year…the list goes on and on. And to be honest, these past few months I have found myself in a season of longing – just waiting for the next season to arrive. I find myself saying things like this on daily basis:
If I could just get to the new year.
If I could just get to my goal weight.
If I could just get through this season of sickness.
If I could just get my house organized.
If I could just get my bloodwork to look better.
If I could just get my mom moved into her new house.
If I could just get Ry through grad school.
If I could just meet my small business goals xyz.
If I could just have one free day to get things done.
Last week I was sitting by the fire working. It was freezing outside (winter really arrived after all here in Oklahoma!), so I was spending the morning at home editing and I stopped to brainstorm about my 2018 goals when a thought hit me like a ton of bricks.
You know those moments when the Lord just stops you in your tracks and speaks to you in such a way that the rest of the world is still? Those moments are few and far between for me because I’m always over analyzing in a sea of noise – but this moment was pure and clear. This thought came to me:
Your goals will never bring you true fulfillment.
Oh man – it’s so true. And don’t get me wrong – I still think goals are good and healthy and necessary. But when you think of that ONE thing you have been hoping and praying for to get you to the next season – will it really bring you true fulfillment? No. I promise you it won’t.
I could accomplish that entire list above and at the end of the day – I will still not be fulfilled. The only thing that brings true fulfillment in this life is God and seeking him. And once I had that realization sitting on my living room couch, I suddenly had no desire to brainstorm anymore and I picked up my devotional book instead.
(For more, check out Goals: Part II)