It was the end of October and I was on my morning walk. This year October was warmer than most in OKC, but this specific morning was crisp and cool and I decided to take drop what I was doing and take a walk with my coffee and to enjoy the weather instead. It was absolutely beautiful and I listened to my favorite acoustic playlist while I walked around the pond.
About halfway through I started thinking about the mountain of to-do’s I had left behind at the house. Loads of editing, hundreds of emails, laundry piled up, the house a chaotic mess, a million errands I had to run. It was busy season in the photography world and to be honest, I was drowning. There weren’t enough hours in the day to get done all thing things I needed to do, not to mention anything I wanted to do. I gave up half way into my walk and turned around to get things done, tears welling up in my eyes on the walk back because I didn’t have time that week to get even ten minutes of fresh air. That’s the moment I knew I needed to make a change.
2017 has been a huge year of growth for me. I opened a studio, took pictures of hundreds of babies, families, and sweet kids. My day dream officially grew into what I always wanted it to be – my full time job. I was loving every minute. I knew what a blessing it was to be busy, but I couldn’t keep up with the fast growth. Towards the end I felt like I had sprinted a marathon, always racing to stay ahead but never quite on top of it and always, always out of breath.
I had a realization one day as I was reading an email newsletter I get from another small business. (Cultivate What Matters by Laura Casey – I highly recommend!!) It was if the words I was reading were speaking directly to me…
“We often think of slow growth as flawed growth, but the truth is all good things grow slow – babies, fruit, relationships, and big dreams.
What if fast isn’t the goal?
New homeowners like trees labeled “fast growing” to fill in a space quickly. But fast growing trees don’t have deep enough roots to last through storms and drought. Good things take root over time. Maybe, despite everything everyone tells you, slow is richer than fast. Maybe a slower pace will help your roots stretch deep and wide. It’s okay to grow slow.“
Those words jumped off the page and into my head and they have stuck with me ever since. When I was thinking of what I wanted my “word of the year” to be for 2018, my answer was obvious.
Slow down. Breathe. Make time for the things I love. Grow slowly and intentionally – weighing each decision instead of saying yes, yes, yes. Growing slow roots in the right direction to build a strong and sustainable foundation, instead of rapid growth that could quickly crash and burn. Start my days slowly with coffee and God’s word. Wind down the evenings slowly with my husband by the fire or on the back porch. Take slow steps toward my goals each day.
With all that said, you will see that my actual goals look very different than last year! It is still a list of action steps – but they are actions that will force me to slow down instead of speed up. I can’t wait to share them with you in my next post!
Check out my final goal post here: Part IV